Monday, December 9, 2013

Almost end of term

Hurrayy term's almost coming to an end, I'm suppose to be ecstatic but, I'm not.

I guess I can attribute that to my sub-par game theory assignment which I've given up asking for help / given up trying to solve some bullshit theory which is not applicable to real life AT ALL, also have my exercise plan thrown off for the past couple of days, and consuming too much sweet stuff for my own (belly's) good.

How does it feel to really love somebody but sometimes you just feel like your wings are being clipped whenever they're around. I meant to dedicate this entire weekend to that fuckin' game theory assignment which I'm horrible at but I just can't do that if I'm not on my own. I don't even know what's the word, polite? Sticky? or maybe just plain lazy / cba.

On another note, I was really anticipating Paris but I guess that's not happening anymore. This is what happens when you wait around for someone to do something. I could've sorted it out but was told to leave it. I guess we've got all sorts of things to place our blame on i.e. assessment centre, job interviews and shit.

Sometimes I just wish I didn't have to do all this, but I do it anyway because it's good for me. I know what I want to do, and what I have to do to get there. I'm just sick of having to be the mature one around, I feel like my youth's seeping away too early. moan groan.

Monday, November 11, 2013

Thursday, November 7, 2013


Today's been such a long day (okay not really, I woke up at 8:38am but fell back to sleep till 11) but it's one day where I've been up and about, attending meetings which I've never intended to go to and dragging my ass to the gym after all that.

And I feel great.

No obligations, just me myself, running along on full power doing shit that I wanna do without having to accommodate anyone else, but myself. No time wasting waiting around for people. Just pure efficiency.

So today's the day I've decided to set my priorities right. There are some things in life which are more important than being next to a loved one but doing absolutely nothing productive, nor interacting with one another. Final year now, time to buckle up.


Tuesday, November 5, 2013


Can I just say that I am absolutely knackered from getting at at 7am to travel to London,
for an informal interview that lasted for an hour,
rushed my ass back for a circuits class at half 6 and I've got a load of backlog to do.

And to top it off, it doesn't help that I FALL ASLEEP on every single mode of public transport. I just can't seem to stay awake for more than 30minutes! I just doze right off despite that skinny latte I just had.

Kamal had a word to describe it, a nerdy one which explains why I can't name it off the top of my head. But it explains why I fall asleep so quickly on anything moving. I zonk out during a flight take-off when others are struggling with air sickness.

Okay this post's absolutely redundant as I've just wasted more time on it and not getting any work done. Sometimes I wonder if all this extra work I'm doing is actually worth it. If I stayed back in Singapore, I will not be doing any of this. I'll be driving to uni, eating awesome food, studying and basically not be the person that I am now.

It's worth it, but I feel the toll on my skin I feel so old......... :'(

Saturday, February 16, 2013

A Year ago

Can I just say that I've had a top Valentines. To be honest though I'm not one for such commercialised 'holidays' so I'm not a tough nut to please.

I spent the early morning of it cutting and powdering up the turkish delight I made for the boyf, crawled back into bed and let's just say he likes it and I now know how much sugar goes into that candy. I attended lectures which were of no concern to me and we braved the cold wind to see Mr. Cuttles in the museum. Mr. Cuttles is probably the newest exhibit there and he has been wanting to see it since last year. If you haven't guessed, it is a cuttlefish.

In the evening we went to my favourite asda, got lasagne necessities and he starting whipping me up an amazingly healthy dish. The key lime pie which I bought completely kicked out the 'healthy' factor but no meal is complete without a kickass dessert.

The very odd square instagram picture. I apologise.
Lasagne with garlic bread and sun dried tomatoes.

This is Salem the flying cat.

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Happy 2013

So I made a promise to myself to pen more about Uni life but I really didn't. 

I did tho, get myself an iPhone and took a shitload of pictures to keep memories close and it's all loaded on facebook so that is quite sufficient I should think.

Last year after 3 months of hardcore fresher drinking and dying, and hanging,
I signed up for the gym on the 5th of January and did significantly less of all that drinking.

I was just thinking how quite thankful I am that gym membership is expensive, which means I'll go more making it more worth it. Whatever it is, I am thankful that I am not obese now and first year has been more than awesome.

Gonna end this post abruptly with a picture of my little sister (whom I miss so much) and I in Glasgow.
Family came up to visit during Christmas, was absolutely lovely and I'll never forget how much we laughed during this 10 days. 
Always taking the piss out of our parents and just over anything really.
It's funny how I feel more motivated and inspired just talking to my 
younger sister (and brother).
It really should be me setting the example,
but I wouldn't have it any other way, anyway.

Monday, December 24, 2012

Supposed to be

Something's wrong with me.

I must be reading too much shit that has caused this whirlpool of emotions and rhetorical questions for myself. It's 79minutes past Christmas midnight and I'm being mopey, in my hotel room. My sister's right next to me but I feel lonelier than ever. Christmas is meant to be happy, what's taking it away from me. Maybe because everyone around me doesn't give a fuck about it that's probably why. Or this massive lack of sleep and too much tv. Or this pessimistic feeling about my relationships and the future and how old I am getting. Im only 21 so I dont know where's all this stress coming from but I just want it to be over soon.

My Christmas wish is to sort myself out. No more tears you weak shiat. And no more space for people who don't care.